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saturday, june 13th 2009



i'm smiling in front of people
i'm cheering no matter what they say
i'm talking gladly everyday
but they just don't know me

i'm staring at every single moment with them
i'm laughing at every jokes turn out
i'm shouting like no pressure
but they just dont't see me

who knows it's just hiding from people
i don't even know if...
what i've done today is from my heart
or just for formality

i don't even feel it clearly
do i have released it?
or i just pretend to release it?
i can't even see the difference

why do i get so calm?
is it from my deepest heart?
or i just try to get calm?
i can't even feel the truth

all i know i'm so tired today
too many lies too many fakes
is it fakes or i just thought it's fake?
i don't even understand

life's unpredictable
and fate plays us
they wrote our life in perfect scenario
but we can't choose our scene

we can stuck on the past life
or just let the life flows
but we never know how it ends
we just can wonder how's next

i don't even know who i am
am i still the sick-minded girl?
still a liar? a pretender? a faker?
or i'm getting normal with everything?