He's Too Young To Fall

Wednesday, December 30th 2009
2 days before new year.

i still can't believe that The Rev has gone.

banyak hal yang gue pikirin.
apa dia pantes untuk meninggal? dia masih amat sangat muda. dia berbakat. and i'm sure he really loves music. he dedicated his life for music. he's a drummer, a pianist, a vocalist. and i'm sure he can do more.
dia orang yang baik setau gue. dia mau ngelayanin fans fansnya bahkan cuma untuk sekedar foto bareng atau minta tanda tangan sekalipun.

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kenapa Tuhan panggil dia? mungkin aku ngga kenal dia, dan dia ngga kenal aku, tapi aku perduli. bahkan turut sedih atas kematian dia. dia masih muda ya Tuhan, juga berbakat. banyak orang yang sayang dan butuh dia. tapi kenapa Engkau panggil dia secepat ini?
temenku bilang, aku ngga boleh nyeselin apa yang udah direncanain sama Tuhan. karna Tuhan lebih tau mana yang baik buat dia. aku cuma susah untuk nerimanya. aku ngga takut sama kematian, aku juga tau aku pasti mati juga nantinya. yang aku takutin cuma kalau aku ditinggal sama orang orang yang aku sayang karna mereka udah lebih dulu Kau panggil. dan sekarang Engkau panggil James Owen Sullivan. ya, mungkin aku ngga kenal dia. dia bukan siapa siapa aku. tapi aku harap supaya Engaku memberikannya tempat terbaik di surga bersama Mu. dimana ia bisa beristirahat dengan tenang, tanpa gangguan, tanpa ada pikiran yang membebani, tanpa masalah yang memberatkan.
aku mohon dengan sangat ya Tuhan. kabulkanlah permohonanku ini.
dalam nama Yesus aku berdoa dan mengucap syukur. Amin.

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James Owen Sullivan


Good Bye Jimmy :'(


i know you care about your fans


i love every beat you created from your drum playing


you're the best drummer i've ever known



Sleep Thight James Owen Sullivan a.k.a. The Reverend Tholomew Plague.
May God always beside you, now and forever.
you're forever in our hearts, in my heart
we love you, I LOVE YOU.

YOU'RE IRREPLACEABLE!

maaf

gue mau minta maaf. sama semuanya. semua orang yang gue kenal dan gue temuin. atas semua hal yang gue lakuin. sengaja atau ngga sengaja.
juga sama Tuhan yang udah gue kecewain berkali kali, yang udah gue buat sedih berkali kali karna kelakuan gue yang ngga selalu keluar dari jalan-Nya. yang selalu kacau dan akhirnya ngerepotin banyak orang supaya gue bisa sadar lagi.

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pertama gue mau minta maaf sama Tuhan. tahun ini gue ngelakuin banyak dosa yang lebih parah dari tahun tahun sebelomnya. dosa yang sama yang gue ulang ulang terus tanpa kesapadaran dan tanpa keperdulian. orang ngelakuin dosa emang biasa, dan ngga akan lepas dari dosa itu. but i feel i fall to the same mistake again and again, but never learn about it. payah ya gue? haha. bukan itu aja, gue juga mau minta maaf karna sering marah marah sama Tuhan, karna gue ngga pernah bisa menghargai pemberian-Nya dengan seharusnya. yang gue bisa cuma mengutuk. cuma ngeluarin sumpah serapah ke hidup gue yang belakangan ini makin ngga bisa gue ngerti. dan selalu berakhir gue nyalahin Tuhan, berakhir dengan penyesalan gue "kenapa gue dilahirkan". gue udah berkali kali ngecewain Tuhan tanpa henti taun ini.

kedua gue mau minta maaf sama orangtua gue. yang seharusnya jadi tempat pertama geu cerita semua masalah dan hal hal yang gue hadepin, tapi malah jadi orang terkahir yang tau masalah masalah gue karna gue yang terlalu tertutup. yang seharusnya jadi orang pertama yang paling gue hormatin di hidup gue tapi perkataannya malah sering banget gue bantah, yang seharusnya jadi orang pertama yang selalu gue turutin nasehatnya tapi selalu gue langgar dengan segala cara. yang harusnya jadi orang pertama yang kenal gue luar dalem, tapi gue ngga membuka diri gue untuk mereka kenal. karna gue tetep berpura pura depan mereka. yang harusnya jadi orang pertama yang gue cari buat menghabiskan waktu kalo gue ada waktu senggang, tapi gue selalu sibuk sama temen gue atau diri gue sendiri. yang harusnya gue bantu dengan ngeringanin beban kerjaannya setiap hari, tapi malah selalu gue repotin berkali kali karna gue yang kaya gini.
gue mau minta maaf sama bokap nyokap gue.

sama sahabat sahabat gue dan semua orang yang gue sayang, maaf gue selalu ngerepotin kalian, karna gue lebih sering nyusahin kalian daripada bantuin kalian. karna kelakuan gue seringkali bikin kalian marah atau kesel, bukannya bahagia. karna seringkali gue merusak suasana. karna gue sering bertindak ngga pake mikir.

dan sama orang orang yang sayang sama gue.
gue minta maaf karna gue sering ngecewain kalian. ngga bisa jadi apa yang kalian harapkan di diri gue. karna gue terlalu egois dan terlalu keras kepala akan pikiran gue. karna gue yang terlalu bego, dan ngga bisa mikir akhirnya cuma bisa bikin semua orang khawatir.

i know i'm a bad girl. always dissapointed everybody around me. act like a childish. can't read situation. and many worst thing.

and on this Christmas day, i wanna do apologize.
even i'm not brave enough to say it in front of people who's been dissapointed by me.

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Dear God,
i'm sorry. for all the bad things that i've done to You and those people i love on these years. i know i've been a bad girl. i fell into the same mistakes again and again but i never learn about it. i know there're so many sins i've done. i've dissapointed You many times. i've made You sad again and again. i've blamed You for the things that i regret. when actually it's my fault, and i just too fool to give thanks to You.
and by the day of Christmas, when Your Son born as a human child to safe human race and always help us to always walk on the Your way. please, forgive me. forgive me from all my sins, forgive me from all of the bad things i've done. i wanna start all over again. although i haven't been baptize as a catholic. i wis i can start all over again as a new born child.
please God, forgive me, help me through next year, and also keep blessing me and my family.
thank you God. Hallelujah
Amen

Have a Merry Little Xmas :)

nothing much to say on this Christmas day. i just hope this isn't my last Christmas day. and i wanna be more patient for the next year. and maybe i can get baptize as a Catholic.

Merry Christmas. Feliz Navidad. Zalig Kerstfeast. Joyeux Noel. Froehliche Weihnachten. Buone Feste Natalizie. Shinnen omedeto.


and this is one of my favorite Christmas Quote :

We hear the beating of wings over Bethlehem and a light that is not of the sun or of the stars shines in the midnight sky. Let the beauty of the story take away all narrowness, all thought of formal creeds. Let it be remembered as a story that has happened again and again, to men of many different races, that has been expressed through many religions, that has been called by many different names. Time and space and language lay no limitations upon human brotherhood.

[New York Times, 25 December 1937, quoted in Quotations for Special Occasions by Maud van Buren, 1938, published by The H.W. Wilson Company, New York]

i know i'm not good at words

i know i'm not good at words,
but i just want to tell you

you are the boy whom i follow to find the right place
you are the boy who my eyes search for every minutes
you are the boy whom made me feel so curious about

and even though you act as annoying as a child
and your mouth keep turning crazy stupid jokes
and you make me cry cause you have hurt me by your jokes

i don't care how annoying you will be cause i know that is who you are
i don't care how many times you will hurt me with your jokes cause i know you don't mean to
i don't care what they said about you cause i know you more than they thought

because, all that i know is you're still the one whom i've been looking for every morning
the place beside you is the place i wish i could be
and in your eyes i wish i can stay for the rest

When the Day Met the Night

When the moon fell in love with the sun
All was golden in the sky
All was golden when the day met the night

When the sun found the moon
She was drinking tea in a garden
Under the green umbrella trees
In the middle of summer

When the moon found the sun
He looked like he was barely hanging on
But her eyes saved his life
In the middle of summer

In the middle of summer
All was golden in the sky
All was golden when the day met the night
Summer, all was golden in the sky
All was golden when the day met the night
Summer
Golden when the day met the night

So he said, "Would it be all right
If we just sat and talked for a little while
If in exchange for your time, I give you this smile?"

So she said, "That's okay
As long as you can make a promise not to break my little heart
Or leave me all alone in the summer."

Well, he was just hanging around
Then he fell in love
And he didn't know how
But he couldn't get out
Just hanging around
Then he fell in love

In the middle of summer
All was golden in the sky
All was golden when the day met the night
Summer, all was golden in the sky
All was golden when the day met the night
Summer

When the moon fell in love with the sun,
All was golden in the sky,
All was golden when the day met the night

Summer
The middle of summer, summer, summer, summer
The middle of summer, summer, summer, summer
The middle of summer, summer, summer, summer
The middle of...

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it used to be a beautiful song, and also the lyrics.
but now the lyrics seem like just a piece of the past.

i miss Panic at the Disco when they were still together.

Brendon Boyd Urie
George Ryan Ross III
Jonathan Jacob Walker
Spencer James Smith V

Paramore - Brick by Boring Brick

Well she lives in the fairy tale
Somewhere too far for us to find
Forgotten the taste and smell
Of a world that she's left behind
It's all about the exposure the lens I told her

The angles are all wrong now
She's ripping wings off of butterflies
Keep your feet on the ground
When your head's in the clouds

Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Ba da ba ba da ba ba da

So one day he found her crying
Coiled up on the dirty ground
Her prince finally came to save her
And the rest you can figure out
But it was a trick
And the clock struck 12

Well make sure to build your home brick by boring brick
or the wolf's gonna blow it down
Keep your feet on the ground
When your head's in the clouds

Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Woah, woah.

Well you built up a world of magic
Because your real life is tragic
Yeah you built up a world of magic

If it's not real
You can't hold it in your hand
You can't feel it with your heart
And I won't believe it

But if it's true
You can see it with your eyes
Or even in the dark
And that's where I want to be, yeah

Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Ba da ba ba da ba ba da...

Christmas Wishlist

Christmas Wishlist :

1. anger management
2. new flash disc up to 2GB
3. new memory card for cellphone
4. Boys Like Girls live DVD : Read Between the Lines
5. Paramore live DVD
6. My Chemical Romance live DVD
7. A Walk to Remember DVD
8. new jacket-for-boy that has many pockets.

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yang kepikiran baru segitu. nanti kalo terlintas lagi apa yang gue pengen bakal gue update.
tapi yang bener bener butuh yang nomor 1.

you are the one

you are the one who have the best smile

you are the one who have really nice eyes

you are the one who make me laugh a lot

and make me smile on my worst day ever

you are the one i wish i always have fun with

you are the one i miss

you are the one who changed my life

you are the one i used to be really close to

you are the one i realized i can't live without

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" .. i'm the one who wants to be with you
deep inside i hope you feel it too .. "

Theodorus Thedy Maringka

i wanna shout to the world
or to everything
or everybody that could hear me :


i miss
Theodorus Thedy Maringka

if i get one more chance, i swear i won't waste it. i will use it as usable as it possible.
i've tasted the bitter regret, i've felt the sad part.
and i won't do the same mistake again

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haha, gue kaya orang bego nangis malem malem gini. entah apaan tau yang gue tangisin. ngga jelas. toh yang gue tangisin ya kesalahan gue sendiri. penyesalan gue sendiri.

gue mau ngapain lagi?

padahal gue udah jelas jelas benci banget nangis karna hal gini. tapi kenapa hal ini ngga ilang ilang dari otak gue. gue ngga mau nangis berulang ulang karna kesalahan gue. toh dengan gue nangis ngga akan memperbaiki kesalahan gue.

gue cuma mau bilang, thed, gue kangen sama lo. banget. gue kangen hari hari dimana lo sering jailin gue. keisengan lo yang bisa bikin gue kesel setengah mati. atau lo yang ngerepotin gue terus terusan dengan segala permintaan tolong lo yang sebenernya nyusahin.

dulu gue emang kesel thed, setiap lo gangguin, setiap lo katain walau cuma iseng, setiap lo mintain tolong kerjain tugas lo yang berarti gue musti ngerjain tugas dua kali lipat.

tapi sekarang gue kangen semua itu. gue pengen semuanya keulang lagi. kalo ngga bisa diulang sekalipun gue pengen hal itu kejadian lagi. entah gimanapun caranya. gue supaya bisa deket sama lo lagi, ngetawain apapun masalah yang ada depan mata. kita katain lagi guru guru semua mata pelajaran yang ngeselin. main tendang tendangan di bawah bangku pas pelajaran agama.

gue pengen semua itu keulang lagi thed.

entah gimanapun caranya.

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" .. two years you're still on my mind .. "

" .. i bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
i watched the stars crash on the sea
if i could ask God just a one question
why aren't you here with me tonight .. "

Mr. Big - To Be With You

Hold on little girl
Show me what he's done to you
Stand up little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
wake up who cares about
Little boys that talk too much
I've seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you

Chorus

Why be alone when we can be together baby
You can make my life worthwhile
And I can make you start to smile

When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you

Someday We'll Know - Mandy Moore & Jonathan Foreman

90 miles outside Chicago
Can't stop driving
I don't know why
So many questions
I need an answer
Two years later
You're still on my mind

Whatever happened to Amelia Earhart?
Who holds the stars up in the sky?
Is true love just once in a lifetime?
Did the captain of the Titanic cry?

Someday we'll know if love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you

Does anybody know the way to Atlantis
Or what the wind says when she cries?
I'm speeding by the place that I met you
For the 97th time tonight

Someday we'll know if love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you
Someday we'll know why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know that I was the one for you

I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
I watched the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why aren't you here with me tonight?

Someday we'll know if love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you
Someday we'll know why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know that I was the One for you

tangis

and the tears ran down on my face, once again

tangis. gue terbilang orang yang cukup jarang nangis. kalo ada orang yang terharu nonton film, baca novel, atau segala macem, itu bukan gue.
gue nangis cuma karna alesan alesan tertentu. gue jarang nangis karna sedih. terakhir kali gue nangis karna sedih waktu Opa gue meninggal 5 januari 2007 lalu.
selebihnya sekalipun gue nangis, gue lebih sering nangis karna marah yang udah ngga terbendung.

tapi hari ini gue nangis. karna alesan yang gue sendiri bingung untuk mengklasifikasikannya. apa itu karna gue sedih, marah ke diri gue sendiri, kesel karna kesempatan yang gue lewatin. atau apapun.
dan gue juga bingung kenapa gue bisa nangis tiba tiba. jadi segini sensitifnya. karna biasanya gue cuma mentertawakan diri gue sendiri atas semua kesalahan yang gue buat. ngga pernah gue pikirin sampe selama ini. pasti gue lupain dengan cepat.

ini semua, air mata gue hari ini, cuma karna satu hal itu.

tadi pagi gue selsain baca novel temen gue. judulnya Refrain. gue lupa yang ngarang siapa. covernya cukup unik. ditempel amplop biru yang isinya cuma satu helai kertas bertuliskan kalimat singkat. tapi 'ngena'. "it's always been you"

ceritanya soal 3 sahabat. niki, nata, anna. niki sama nata udah sahabatan dari kecil. mereka udah bener bener kenal satu sama lain. nata tau semua kebiasaan, dan hal hal kecil yang ngga pernah diperhatiin orang tentang niki. begitu juga sebaliknya. kalo anna, dia baru pindah beberapa bulan ke jakarta, da langsung deket sama niki-nata karna kebaikan mereka berdua.
anna suka sama nata, tapi dia juga tau akan rasa sayang nata ke niki yang melebihi rasa sayang seorang sahabat. akhirnya nata tau akan perasaan anna, tapi hubungan mereka ngga berlanjut lebih, tetep jadi sahabat yang saling dukung. bahkan anna ngedukung usaha nata buat nunjukin perasaannya ke niki.
sampai akhirnya niki jadian sama oliver, tim basket sma lain. semenjak itu nat jadi kacau. dan benci sama oliver. tapi tetep ngedukung mereka di depan niki karna ngga mau ngelukain perasaan niki.
tapi akhirnya niki tau perasaan nata terhadapnya. dan mulai menjaga jarak dengan nata. jadi jarang ngumpul bareng nata dan anna.
waktu prom night di sma oliver, niki dateng tapi ngeliat oliver bareng cewek lain, padahal sebelomnya oliver telfon niki dan bilang kalo dia sakit dan ngga bisa dateng ke prom.
niki ngerasa dikhianatin dan cuma bisa keluar dari hall dan nangis sendirian di depan. tapi akhirnya nata dateng, jemput niki dengan sepedanya. ngehibur niki sampai akhirnya persahabatan mereka menjadi normal lagi.

ya mereka tetep ngejalanin hari hari deket kelulusan mereka dengan status 'sahabat'. sampai akhirnya nata harus pindah ke amerika karna kuliah disana.
niki yang awalnya ngga bisa ngerelain nata pergi akhirnya melepas nata, tanpa bilang kalo dia juga sayang sama nata.

5tahun kemudian. mereka bertiga tetep sahabatan, anna udah sukses dengan fotografinya, dan niki jadi guru.
akhirnya nata pulang, masih dengan perasaan yang sama terhadap niki. mereka ketemu lagi.

sorry for the bad review.

gue seperti nata, yang ngerasain perasaan itu duluan. perasaan sayang yang lebih dari sayang sebagai sahabat. yang ngerasa bingung perasaan apa yang gue rasain itu. yang cuma bis ngungkapin perasaan gue dengan lirik lagu ciptaan sendiri tanpa bisa gue share dan gue kasih ke dia. yang selalu sabar ngadepin tingkah laku sahabat gue yang susah diatur, ribet, susah dibilangin. yang selalu pengen bantuin dia dengan segenap kemampuan gue walaupun gue sendiri kesusahan.

gue seperti niki yang ngga sadar apa yang gue punya dan gue miliki, dan jadian dengan oranglain yang gue kenal tapi berakhir dengan gue yang nanggung rasa sakit. gue yang ngga berani ngungkapin apa yang gue rasain ke sahabat gue. sampai akhirnya semuanya terlambat.

but the end of their story is better than mine.
:'(

" .. your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
do you know you're unlike any other?
you'll always be my thunder, and i said
your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
i don't wanna ever love another
you'll always be my thunder
so bring on the rain
and bring on the thunder .. "


it's always been you, Theodorus Thedy Maringka.

temen

bicara soal temen.
pertanyaan yang ada cuma, apa gue punya temen?

dulu. mungkin.
gue punya temen temen yang bisa dibilang sahabat sahabat gue. yang bener bener akrab satu sama lain, sering barengan, sering ketawa bareng, seneng seneng bareng. dan ya, kita deket yang bener bener deket. mereka itu sahabat sahabat gue waktu smp. yang kadang masih ketemuan sampe sekarang. gue kangen saat saat gue sekelas sama mereka. ribut lah di kelas, teriak teriakan, rebutan barang, ngatain orang, ngeledek guru. semuanyaa sampe kita pernah dihukum bareng bareng karna cabut pendalaman materi

dan jauh lebih lama lagi.
gue punya sahabat yang bahkan gue lebih deket sama dia dibanding deket sama orang tua gue. dulu kalo ada apa apa gue cerita ke dia, ngomong ke dia. juga sebaliknya. kita udah bener bener kaya saudara, dan saling ngerti satu sama lain. dia adalah sahabat gue dari sd yang berarti kita udah sahabatan selama 4 tahunan.

sekarang, apa gue punya temen?
apa gue punya orang yang bisa gue luapin emosi gue ke dia setiap harinya?
apa ada orang yang bisa menyadari perubahan emosi gue?

looks!

i guess it would be fun if you work with this style

weird title but i will force myself to wear this if thedy ask me out.

cause actually it's impossible

synthia says she loves the pants

haha, finally i post my looklet design. it looks too simple? of course!

yak gue udah cukup lama design di looklet. baru beberapa bulan sebenernya. dan hasilnya juga masih berantakan. sangat berantakan. kadang gue lagi mood, terus gue bikin. kalo ngga ya ngga. atau gue legi pengen design, terus karna loadingnya lama dan gue males nunggu gue buka window lain dan gue tinggalin sampe akhirnya gue mau matiin laptopnya karna udah kelamaan. akhirnya ngga jadi.

and the last look is about me. what i usually wear and what i love to wear. :)

new friend. old friend. everlasting friend

new friend. old friend. everlasting friend.

update update

udah sekian minggu gue ngga posting lagi. boro boro posting ngecek blog juga ngga. karna lebihs ering buka facebook dan twitter. tapi gue udah pengen ganti skin aja. hm, susah jadi orang bosenan.

well, besides the rare update, i had so much fun today.

yeah setelah sekian lama ngga bisa, akhirnya tadi gue ujan ujanan sampe puas. yah, belom begitu puas juga sih, tadi cuma bentar ujan ujanannya, yang bikin lama main airnya haha. untung banget tadi pagi gue niat bawa baju ganti buat badmin tapi belom ganti baju. sialnya gue ngga sekalian bawa celana ganti. padahal kalo tadi gue ngga ikut main air dari kran, celana gue lah yang paling basah. setelah main air dari kran dengan 'kedok' hujan buatan baru baju gue bener bener basah (untung deh ah gue pake baju item tadi).
tadi gue juga sempet jatoh dan bikin ukiran baru di dengkul gue. haha kapan lagi dengkul gue luka? jadi inget waktu kecil di dengkul gue mau kiri atau kanan pasti ada perban karna gue ngga bisa diem lari larian mulu.

dan baru tadi gue ngerasain yang namanya ketawa bebas lagi tanpa beban setelah sekian lama. akhirnya gue bisa ketawa lepas selepas lepasnya kaya waktu gue smp dulu. waktu belom dirundung banyak pikiran dan beban kaya sekarang ini. ketawa yang bener bener dari hati karna gue seneng dan bareng temen temen gue. it's not my fake laugh which came out dear.

sampe sekarang masih belom ketauan tadi gue ujan ujanan, haha. begitu sampe rumah untungnya nyokap gue lagi tidur, gue cepet cepet masukin handuk yang tadi gue bawa sama baju basah tadi ke keranjang pakaian. yang ngeliat cuma bokap sih tapi ngga ditanyain, ahay.
abis itu gue langsung mandi dan makan. entah kenapa pas makan kepala gue udah kerasa berat banget. badan gue juga panas. akhirnya gue paksain tidur selimutan. dan begitu bangun sekarang, radang gue yang makin parah. nice. kalo radang udah akut namanya apa?

i love today!

by the way, i started to make a fiction. gue nyoba nyoba ngarang cerita lagi setelah gagal sekian kali. stuck terus di awal. masih mending orang orang stuck di pertengahan ya gue di awal. haha.
tapi entah kenapa gue cukup yakin sama cerita gue yang ini.

i've been inspired by this song :

Little change of the heart
Little light in the dark
Little hope that you just might find your way up out of here
‘Cause you’ve been hiding for days
Wasted and wasting away
But I got a little hope that today you’ll face your fears

Yeah I know that it’s not easy
I know that it’s so hard
Follow the lights to the city

And get up andGo, take a chance and be strong
Or you could spend your whole life holding on
Don’t look back just go,
Take a breath, move along
Or you could spend your whole life holding on
You could spend your whole life holding on

Believe the tunnel can end
Believe your body can mend
Yeah I know you can make it through‘Cause I believe in you
So let’s go put up a fight
Let’s go make everything alright
Go on and take a shot go give it all you got

Oh yeah I know that it’s not easy
I know that it’s hard
Yeah it’s not always pretty

Get up and go,
Take a chance and be strong
Or you could spend your whole life falling on
Don’t look back just go,
Take a breath and move along
You could spend your whole life holding on
You could spend your whole life holding on

Don’t wanna wake up to the telephone ring
Are you sitting down?
I need to tell you something
Enough is enough, you can stop waiting to breathe
And don’t wait up for me

Get up and goTake a chance and be strong
You can spend your whole life holding on
Don’t look back just go
Take a breath and move along
You could spend your whole life holding on

Get up and go
Take a chance and be strong
Or you could spend your whole life holding on
Don’t look back just go
Take a breath, move along
Or you could spend your whole life holding on
You could spend your whole life holding on
Don’t spend your whole life holding on
Yeah

[ Boys Like Girls - Go ]

kenapa lagu ini yang jadi inspirasi gue?
yah, mungkin karna lagu ini agak menggambarkan kehidupan gue *cih*. yah karna gue suka liriknya. and it gives me support eventhough i still can't trust myself.
" .. believe the tunnel can end. believe the body can mend .. "

if i believe, can it change my past and my future?
can it fix my secret trauma?