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if i do belong to hell
can i buy a chance to get in to heaven?

if i've done too many sins
will i get more chances to fix those all?

if i've never appreciate my life
and i do have wanted to leave this life
acn someone show me that this life is the biggest gift for me?

if i always felt my life is such a curse
and i'm dying to face everyday with smile
can someone show me how beautiful my life is?

if i feel too worried
for what's another thing that would destroy my day
and makes my whole day becomes worse
will someone tell me to be brave to face it?

if i cried often every night
cause of too many problems that i have to solve everyday
will someone comes to help me stop my tears?

if i'm all alone
cause they've left me and didn't need me anymore
to know that they just take me for granted
can i have someone that will stands next to me?

if i always hide my emotions
and give them the fake,
i'll not tell them why
cause i hate when they force me to tell

i often do that
smile when i worried inside
cheering when i'm crying deep in my heart
laugh when my mind screams my madness

i can't show them the real
just keep pretending and shut my mouth
keep lying and hide my tears
cause i don't think that they'll understand
i don't think that they can keep my secrets
and i don't think that they'll see it with my vision.